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[03 Sep 2009|02:42pm]
Life is good.

I can't believe 5 months ago I cried for a week straight. What the hell is wrong with me? Things have been on a steady incline since April and its amazing.

Pros in my life :

* I have lost about 30 pounds! Woo!
* I am currently living with my parents which means tons of extra cash.
* The parents are moving out soon so I get the house. And I get to have one of my best friends move in with me! I am so excited. Everytime I see him thats all we can talk about.
* When Mikey moves in, we can drink here and not in a bar which means more extra cash!
* I am very focused in school this semester. My eyes are on the prize.
* I love my friends. The 4 in particular that have been there for me through my shitty breakup are amazing. I take them for granted but I would be in shambles without them.
* My blackberry is an extension of my right hand. I understand why people get all obsessive crazy with them
* I got to go to the Bahamas in July with Kevy. It was gorgeous, beautiful, amazing. I don't think there are enough adjetives to describe it. Scenery and beach wise it was soooooo much better than Cancun.
* January 3rd me and my mother are going to VEGAS! yayay! Trips already booked and paid for :)
* My Anatomy and Phys prof is very attractive. He is tattooed and has a mohawk. This is awesome.

Sing Me A Fairytale

[06 Nov 2008|11:17am]
I am all about making goals:


it is my new motto... for now. I slack TOO much. If I want to graduate in the next decade I need to take that sentence to heart.

I think Ireland is off because our 3rd's tour of Iraq got extended? I dunno the whole situation.

Its ok though. Me, Nick, Carrie, Dave and (maybe) Kat and Mikey are going to CABO in May. And that will be fun too.

If I take one trip a year for the rest of my life, I will be happy. I would like to take more, but with finances one a year is good.

Me and Keven want to go to Antartica in the next few years. That excited me. He is the only person who would even go there with me <3
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WOW [25 Sep 2008|12:23pm]
[ mood | chipper ]

Justin is back from Iraq for like a hot second. I have seen him two days in a row. Its nice. He has done a lot of growing up and I am proud of him.

Otherwise, I need to get organized. I forgot half of my lab report at home which means I have to turn it in tomorrow. Which means an automatic 2 pt deduction. (its only worth 10). damn.


i love life a little bit more right now.

Sing Me A Fairytale

[13 May 2008|06:54pm]
I am over the past.

Left is TOO short to dwell on mistakes.

You need to learn and move on.

Yes, me and nick are still together. Have opinions about that? SHOVE IT. It is my life. I make my own decisions. If I ask for them, then it is ok.

Cancun was the BEST vacation I have ever been on. Those 3 girls I went with, I love them. They are my sisters, not just in a greek way, but in a 'I'd do anything for you even if it is driving from Jackson at 3 am' way.

I am starting a new life in September. I am transferring colleges. I think it is the right move.
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[26 Mar 2008|11:21am]
[ mood | tired ]

Life.. is.. eh.
I am in a rut, and I need out.
St. Patricks day was one of the best nights in a looooooooong time. I was very very very drunk with all these crazy nice people. The worst part was working at night and feeling like shit once the alcohol wore off.
I dropped my physics class. It was a peice o shit. I still need to to get my degree though. FUCKITY FUCK.
Hung out with Marcy last night. It was a lot of fun. I now remember why we used to get a long so well. She is one of the few people that will just do random shit no matter how crazy it may be or how much money it may cost. I like that about people.
I quit Petsmart. I am going back in the summer or I am going to volunteer like 380752305 hours to the hospital. I need to start getting ready for med school.
I think I am falling out of love with Nick... I think I am over it. He has is priorities (sex, girls, porn, food, baseball) and I have mine (studying, friends, family, work, sorority). They do not overlap and lead not to a lot of fights, but one or two blow outs that g one for days. A la, the one we are having right now.
I do not like two faced people. Everyone loves a little bit of gossip, but be real about it. The things that I say I can say to someone's face.
I have the travel itch really bad. Mexico is in 30 days, but I want to go farther. Austrlia, Europe, anywhere. I want to move, I am so ready to move to Boston and start grad or med school. I will miss a lot of people here but it would be fun for a change of pace. I will probably want to move again after a while of being there, but thats ok.
I will be sooo excited when April is over and I can enjoy a fun sun filed summer.

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[09 Jan 2008|11:35am]
[ mood | complacent ]

So. I've been back in school for three days and I'm already fretting about. This semester is intense. I'm staring at my first physics assignment and I have NO clue. I tried looking online for help, but every website defines an 'operational definition' as something different. So how do I define something with an operational definition if I don't even know what that is.

Whatev. So this semester I am stuck with:
Calculus based Physics 1 & Lab
Advanced Calculus 2
Organic Chemistry 1 & lab
General Bio 2 & lab

It doesn't look like a lot, but it is 17 credits since calc and physics are both 4 days a week, Bio is 3 days, and the three labs are once a week for 3-4 hours.

So, life has been pretty good. New Years was fun minus my terrible headache and nausea. I'm glad peoiple finally came over and hopefully it will happen again soon. Me and Nick still haven't returned all the bottles from that night. Literally we have about 60 beer bottles littering our kitchen. I had to make a path on the counter to be able to get to my coffee pot in the morning.

For the New Year, I didn't really make an resolutions just things that I should have been doing all along and there is no better time than the present to start them. I want to be a healthier person. I want to quit smoking, stop eating so much fried food, and work out a couple times a week. I am going to Mexico in 2 months and I would like to lose maybe 20 pounds by then. I want to be more dedicated to my school work. I know in the past year I have done much much better than my first year and a half, but still my grades from last semester didnt settle well with me. I felt like I put my life into chemistry and all I got out of it was a B. Thanks Dean Henold. So I am ttrying to get a little bit a head in Orgo, that way I will not have to cram so much at the end.

Phew. I've even already had a pretty good week. I got to see Caitlin, Scotty, Kelly G, and Kevin. So thats been nice. Hopefully I will get to see Allison this week and maybe even my boyfriend! Fo sho.

Oh well. I'm done. I really need to do this physics. And I want to study some calculus. Only an hour and a half till my next class. Woot Woot. <3

Sing Me A Fairytale

[11 Dec 2007|01:57am]
There is a good chance that I will call a bomb threat in on Wednesday to get out of my chemisty final. I have been studying 8 hrs a day for the past 2 days and I still feel behind.

I can't wait to walk out of my last final on Friday. Its going to feel good.

I AM GOING TO MEXICO IN MARCH. NANANABOOBOO I can't waiiiiiiiit. 4 Gamma Phi Beta's and an all nclusive trip (INCLUDING ALCOHOL). OMG. spring break might be one of the best things ever.
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[19 Nov 2007|10:14am]
I'm a very jealous person. I am realizing that.

I am really jealous that I can't be part of the group that I love. I miss Katie, Paige, Marcy, Stephanie and all of them. But when I am with them, I feel lost. It is my fault, that I know, but I really don't have anything in my life right now that I can give up to make more time. I need work and money and I need school. Those two things right there pretty much take up 30 hrs of my 24 hour day.

Caitlin's bday is this week. YAY big 20. Tonight is Carrie's house which I hope to attend. BUT I do have a huge bio lab practical tomorrow. boo.

Kevin has made me question myself a lot lately. He says that he has always known since he was little that he would be something great. Then you have me, I can't imagine myself doing one great thing. I want to go to medical school, but I know that is less likely than snakes flying. So where does that leave me? With a biochem degree and 2 dead end jobs at Petsmart and Applebbes? Who knows.

On a good note, I <3 my sorority sisters. Without them I think I would spirl into madness some days. I got my new little. She is as cute as the last one. She also is probably one of the smartest people I know while still being down to earth. I told her she needs to drop out of the PA program and she needs to go to medical school herself.

Ohhh well. ITS ALMOST THANKSGIVING! yayayay. I'm excited for the break from school :)
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[26 Sep 2007|10:11am]
[ mood | restless ]

I'm tired. I just want to lay in bed and be defeated. If that makes any sense at all.

The Devil Wears Prada has been stuck in my head for days. "Call me when everything goes to pieces, it means you are about to be promoted" I feel like that a lot. I excel in school and work and sorority, relationship suffers.

I'm sick of arguing with dumb little girls who don't have a vocabulary of more than 6 insults. I'm so over it.


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Too much time... [24 Sep 2007|12:46pm]
[ mood | frustrated ]

The apartment is great. I love it.
Friends, don't be mad you haven't been there yet. I'm still living out of boxes with shit sprawled everywhere. One day it will all be put away and everyone will be allowed over. :)

I wish I knew I could do it on my own though.
I feel so dependent, it scares me. Who says Nick will be there forever. Even next month?
When did I lose my independence?

I want it back. I want to stand on my own two feet without a boy in my head.
Even when it is over, how long will it take to get back to feeling normal?
Me oh my.

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I'll cry if I want to... [05 Aug 2007|07:32pm]
Its my party tonight. Graffiti party that is.

In 48 hrs I will be 20, but a little premature celebration never hurt anyone.

And me and Nick move into our apartment in September. Buy me Ikea, Target, and Peir 1 gift cards. <3
Sing Me A Fairytale

[10 Jul 2007|02:04pm]
[ mood | sleepy ]

I've seen a lot of people in the past week that I haven't seen in months. It was a nice feeling. I like summer a lot.

But September cannot come any faster. I cannot wait to move back into my dorm and live with two of the greatest friends a girl could have. Its nice having people who care from you sleep like 3 feet away. A sleepover every night.

I do want to get closer with all the friends who have slipped away over the past few years. And not just when I'm drunk at some party.

Nick starts midnights on Monday night. 6pm to 5 am. Sweet. I'm nervous for the sake of our relationship, which I don't know if it is strong enough to get through it. But I'm excited to have all the extra time and to find Lauren Tackett again. I'm not the same happy girl I used to be back in 11th grade. I miss here, and I will find her in the next few months.

Moral of the story: CALL ME. Cause I love you all and I want to hang out <3

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I only write when I bitch... [04 Mar 2007|12:48am]
[ mood | sad ]

...but thats the point of this journal.

I think me and Nick are close to done. This relationship resolves me of any extra energy I may have. I hate wasting it on arguing with him to try to be the #1 in his life. That should be a given. But no, I'm not a myspace slut and I'm kinda fat therefore I am unsuitable to be a girl he likes. Whatever. Over it.

I'm sick of working 40+ hrs and carrying 19 credit hours at school. I work more hours than most adults. WTF. I have no social life whatsoever. I'm sick of it. I deserve something better. I want to see all my friends. Paige, Caitlin, Linda, Allison. I miss you, I'm sorry for not being around.

I'm watching life pass me by. And I'm not in it. I'm on the side lines crying because my boyfriend's a dick or because money is so tight I wonder how do I pay for the extra classes.

When do I get a break? A small pat on the back. Something to tell me that everything will work out in the end. I want some kind of reassurance because right now I feel like a big void.

Something has got to give.

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Hohum [25 Dec 2006|03:57pm]
[ mood | depressed ]

Christmas, you sucked this year.

I didn't get to ice skate downtown in front of the huge tree.
I didnt get to walk down the boardwalk by the river with snow up to my ankles while snuggling into scarfs and mittens and drinking a latte.
I didn't watch a Muppets Christmas Carol.
Hell, I didn't even watch Home alone.
I haven't seen my dad's family in 4 years or so on xmas.
Me and Nick are fighting of course.
My parents are broke and I feel terrible that they feel terrible.
There is no snow and yesterday, I walked around in a tshirt outside.
There was no Christmas Eve Celebration over here.
There was no friend secret santa.

Better times have passed I guess.

BUT, Through all my complaints, I am happy that I get to spend time with my mom, dad, brother, sister-in-law, and niece. I love them and I missed them <3 And I have got to see and hang out with so many wonderful people these 2 weeks, it makes everythig better.

MERRY CHRISTMAS. 2007, grab your balls, here we come!

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College Life [10 Nov 2006|12:58pm]
I've come to the conclusion that the best part of college life is that every single manufacturer of energy drinks frequents our campus atleast once a week to give out free drinks.

Fridays are always the best. I do love me some Monster <3
Sing Me A Fairytale

Food for the mind [06 Sep 2006|09:59am]
I go from being the only LPer to having Rachel Bailey and Rachel Wischow in my bio class, Paleramo in my math and Beth Sollars living across the hill from me.

haha. weird <3
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Well well well... [06 Sep 2006|12:21am]
[ mood | happy ]

WELL. hi.

I made it back to good ole U of D. I love my room.. and my roommate... and my suitemates. Its gonna be a good year.

But, in 4 outta 6 classes, I'm the only upperclassmen. Blah. That I hate. I feel like I have ebola because everyone else talks to everyone else.

BUT, Chuck Palaramo is at U of D and in one of my classes. WAY TO TELL ME STEPH ;)

Hmm, what else. I LOVED CAMPING. I can't wait to go back next year. Hey KT, WHERE'S MY CD??!?! <3


lets hang out. ALL OF YOU.

over and out

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I can't fucking wait. [20 Jul 2006|10:50pm]
[ mood | happy ]

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Please come fast<3

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Contemplation [29 Jun 2006|01:04pm]
I don't understand how the girls in high school who had so much drama and fighting are still BEST FRIENDS yet all of our group who barely had any rarely even talk to each other now.

Also, in friendships, we are not all destined to have the same opinion on all issues. The goal is to learn and respect the other person's values, morals, and opnions. If 2 people don't agree on an issue it doesn't mean they should give their friendship up, it just means they are human beings. <3

Who wants to go to the Wyandotte Fireworks tomorrow?
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Haven't you ever heard of closing the goddamn door? [12 May 2006|12:56pm]
[ mood | annoyed ]

I miss my friends. Its my fault too that I am half hermit. I got locked up in school, work, and homework and lost them all. But its summer. And I miss you. So we should hang out <3

I am offcially part of the corporate world. I am a summer intern at Blue Cross Blue Shield. YAY for $9/hr. I'm keeping PetSmart as my 2nd job then going back full time again when school starts, that way I don't get screwed out of my 2 yr raise.

Plus I get to dress up in fancy business clothes every day.

I <3 working out. the end.

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